Ok.. i’m so sleepy right now after eating delicious char-kuey-teow! But, i have to express myself regarding Malaysian politics nowadays. I admit I did not vote in March ‘08 because I was in the US. But, I followed up with the election. I was happy to see that Malaysians are more mature and independant to choose their leaders. But, I am sad to see how BN goes down after the election. They receive less support from people. I was born when Tun Dr. Mahathir was our Prime Minister. During that time, I knew only one party – Barisan Nasional. During that time, I was convinced that only BN can unite our multiracial country. I was proud of our former Prime Minister, Tun Dr. Mahathir. I was proud to say “Saya Anak Malaysia” (and I still am). And I used to believe that we can achieve Wawasan 2020.
But, now, I am sad to see BN’s situation. Less and less people supported the party. More people are turning to Pakatan Rakyat. Tun Dr. Mahathir is no longer UMNO member. I didn’t say that I don’t support Pakatan Rakyat, but the party is still new. It’s hard for me to put my trust to a new party to lead my beloved country. I can’t see how PAS and DAP – two parties that have contradicting political views, can work with each other to build this nation. Maybe PKR can put a balance between both parties. They are still new. I still give them credits for good performance in the last election. They are still new, so why not give them a chance, right?
But, I am still sad with UMNO. Although, I am not a member of UMNO, but I grew up with UMNO. What I meant here is since I was born, BN (UMNO is a subcomponent of BN) rules the country. So far, they did pretty good job, until recently. Ahhh.. I don’t like bashing anyone. So let me stop here. All our prime ministers have pros and cons. Let’s concentrate on the pros. Abdullah Ahmad Badawi did many good things too. 
So, because of my frustration on BN, and I can’t put my 100% trust to Pakatan Rakyat just yet, I decided to join an NGO. Fight for people, without asking for more votes! But, which NGOs? I was thinking of Sisters In Islam, but they created too much controversy in Malaysia. But, I like their missions and objectives. They really want to help Muslim women in Malaysia (i love that!). They are educated women, outspoken, and not typical Malay Muslim women! They also launch a campaign against book banning. I love that. Only one thing that I don’t like about SIS, sometimes they speak without proper knowledge on certain issues. I respect our ulama’ and I believe they did their studies before establish a fatwa. Maybe I’m wrong, and SIS did do their studies when they gave their comments against certain fatwa. Wallahu’alam.
I want to join AMAN, but don’t know how I can fit in. What I meant here is AMAN seems like more geared toward doctors and nurses. I don’t know how to give shots, I can’t see people suffering without my eyes filled with tears, I can’t see blood without me feel like fainting, I can’t see the horrifying war images without me having nightmares. So, can I work for AMAN? Clearly not!
So, right now, I am still searching for an NGO that I can fit in, so I can be more productive and help more people. Now I am thinking that, if someone really want to help people, they will join NGOs, not political party. Wallahu’alam. Everyone has their own reasons. Only God knows what is best!
Ok now, bedtime for me. I have a dream – one day, I will be in the front line of people who help my country and my people to be a great nation. I will stand side-by-side with Tun Dr. Mahathir, Ungku Aziz, and many others.
Ohhh.. my dreams.. zzzzzz… (bedtime!)
Good luck k!