In the middle of my overwhelming work, I just need to write down my thought and feeling at this moment. I am listening to Dhikr (Remembrance of Allah) while doing work to find peace and solace for my troubled heart. My work is manageable, but something is aching in my heart. I need to write..
Last night, I talked with Tant Aliaa. I cried when I heard her voice. Ya Allah, how I miss her. I wished her “Happy Birthday”, and she was so happy hearing my voice. Alhamdulillah.
There was one question from Tant Aliaa that stroked me the most – “How’s your Ramadan, Nourshams?”
“It was bad, Tant Aliaa. I just didn’t have the mood and discipline. I miss Ramadhan in Charlottesville.”
And Tant Aliaa asked me a gift for her birthday, “Nourshams, read the Qur’an a page a day and put the aim for Laylatul Qadr next Ramadhan. That will be my birthday present. Both of us will get the thawaab.”
Subhanallah.. I just cried when I heard that. It’s such a beautiful birthday gift request ever! I told her, I’m going to start giving her the birthday present starting from that night. So, after Isha’ prayer, I reached for my Pink Qur’an, wiped the dust away, and started reading a page a day. I put my niyah to get the Laylatul Qadr, and as a present for my beloved Tant Aliaa.
Insha Allah, I pray that I will be consistent in this ibadaah, so I can give Tant Aliaa a birthday present everyday, insha Allah. Please pray for me, as being istiqamah is the hardest thing for me.
