I started to love reading Qur’an again. Before I used to find it boring especially reading the translation in Malay. I wish I know Arabic. I know the basic, tho, so I can figure out few words here and there. But it’s still not enough. I don’t have a circle of friends here that want to discuss about Qur’an. To discuss about how Qur’an transforms one’s life. I live alone. So, there is no motivation to dig deeper and understand the meaning of every word in the Qur’an.
.. so, after a while, reading Qur’an is like a task. Boring and dry.
Tonight, I read the Qur’an. I finished Surah Al Baqarah, Alhamdulillah! yay! The last ayah of that Surah really made me cry. These eyes of mine were dry and very stingy lately. I haven’t shed a tear of repentance. But, not anymore tonight. The last ayah really showed me the mercy of God. He taught me how to make du’a, and reminded me that He is the Most Forgiving. God told me, I can go through this test, because He won’t give a test that I can’t bear. He knows me. 
I remember one of the halaqahs that I had in the Charlottesville masjid. We were discussing about Qur’an. One of the sisters said that everytime she had a question about life, etc., she opened the Qur’an.. and there, she found the answer.
I just found the answer to my question. Question that I dunno how to ask. It’s in my heart but I can’t express it in words. I opened the Qur’an, and there, God spoke to me. Alhamdulillah. Allah is the Most Merciful the Most Kind.
